Robbie Williams Admits Being Tempted By Ecstasy In His Sobriety

By McCarton Ackerman 10/10/16
Though Williams hasn’t consumed alcohol for 16 years, he still occasionally smokes "a small amount of pot, purely to relax."
Robbie Williams Admits Being Tempted By Ecstasy In His Sobriety

Despite being a regular in recovery for decades and happily married since getting sober, Robbie Williams says he’s still tempted to fall off the wagon.

The British pop star made the candid admission last week during an interview with the British tabloid The Sun. "I don't want to drink and I don't want to take coke (cocaine), I'm really pleased I don't take coke but I do think about ecstasy," he said. The stress of releasing his upcoming album, Heavy Entertainment Show, has also led Williams to return to therapy sessions in order to better handle his anxiety and depression.

“It’s either low-level or high-level depression, so I try to take care of myself the best I can. If that means resting and taking myself away for a few hours, then I will,” he said. “Depression is a lifelong thing and I know I can still work and still pull it off, even though I'll be feeling low. So I'm as kind to myself as possible.”

Williams first got sober at age 19, but admitted to several relapses throughout his 20s and 30s. The singer even lamented getting sober so early during an October 2012 interview.

''I regret that it was all over so fast. I regret the fact I was 19 when I realized I was out of control," said the 42-year-old singer and songwriter. “I regret the fact I wasn't 29 or 30 when it happened and I'd splodged my way around the world in some sort of alcoholic drug stupor. I spent most of my 20s sober.”

However, his recovery plan is admittedly loose. Although Williams hasn’t consumed alcohol for 16 years, he said in 2013 that he still occasionally smokes “a small amount" of pot to help him relax and said he’s “allowed to go crazy once in a while, just as long as I don’t lose control.”

The singer has said his four-year-old daughter, Theodora, is his inspiration to stay sober, but surprisingly revealed that he would forgo his sobriety to do drugs with her if she wanted to experiment with them.

“If unfortunately that does happen, I’ll know what to do. Which is make sure she’s got the best drugs possible—and take them with her,” he said in June 2013. “I doubt she’ll be like me. Touch wood, and follow that with a lot of love and a lot of luck, she won’t go there or have to go there."

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McCarton Ackerman is a freelance writer and editor living in Portland, Oregon. He has been a contributor for The Fix since October 2011, writing on a wide range of topics ranging from medical marijuana in Colorado to the world's sexiest drug smugglers. Follow him on Linkedin and Twitter.