Stacey Dash Talks Drug Addiction, Abuse in New Autobiography

By Paul Gaita 06/03/16

"I couldn't find happiness. It got to a point where I didn't even want to live anymore. The voice in my head was saying, 'There's nothing here for you.'"

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Stacey Dash Talks Drug Addiction, Abuse in New Autobiography

Actress turned Fox News talk show host Stacey Dash speaks candidly about her past struggles with drug addiction and domestic violence in a new memoir, There Goes My Social Life: From Clueless to Conservative. In the book, which hits shelves June 6, the 49-year-old Dash—best known for her co-starring roles in films like Clueless before joining Fox as a cultural commentator—details a troubled childhood marked by sexual abuse at the age of four and addiction to cocaine that began in her teens and continued into her early twenties. During that period, Dash was also involved in a relationship with a boyfriend who subjected her to severe physical abuse.

"Sometimes my past is extraordinarily heavy. That's when I scream and cry until I feel like I can breathe again," said Dash in an exclusive interview with People"I couldn't find happiness. It got to a point where I didn't even want to live anymore. The voice in my head was saying, 'There's nothing here for you.'" 

She eventually freed herself from that situation and began a relationship with R&B singer Christopher Williams. Dash became pregnant with Williams’ child in 1991, but her drug problems had made her life untenable. "When I got pregnant, I was doing a lot of drugs and I didn’t want to live. I wanted to die," she said. Dash considered aborting her child, but recanted; her son, Austin, is now 25.

However, the turmoil of her past did not end there. After giving birth to her son, Dash states in her book that her abusive ex broke into her home and raped her. She acquired a gun after this first invasion, and fended off a second attack by the ex by firing shots at him. Dash added that she reminds Austin and his half-sister, Lola, 13, from her marriage to Brian Lovell, that struggles such as hers are survivable. “I let them know that I survived,” she said. “I’m not a victim. And there is nothing they can’t overcome.”

Though she continues to act, Dash has acquired new fame as a co-host of the Fox News Channel talk show Outnumbered. She has also generated headlines for her conservative politics and stirred controversy when she called Jada Pinkett Smith and Spike Lee's plan to boycott the 2016 Oscars to protest Hollywood's lack of diversity "ludicrous." She also elicited anger when she said Black History Month and the BET Network should be eliminated. 

In her interview with People, she tried to explain her position. "When I say there should not be a BET channel or a Black History Month, I'm saying we deserve more," she said. "I just hope people understand that I'm not judging; I'm coming from experience." 

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Paul Gaita lives in Los Angeles. He has contributed to the Los Angeles Times, Variety, LA Weekly, Amazon.com and The Los Angeles Beat, among many other publications and websites. 

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