Lil Xan Relapsed, Still Focused On Sobriety

By Kelly Burch 07/02/19

“I’ve been feeling like death from withdrawals but I know once I’m sober I’ll feel amazing," the rapper said in an Instagram post to fans.

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Rapper Lil Xan recently relapsed, but he is focused on long-term sobriety, he told followers in an Instagram post. 

“I love you guys so much, wanted to let you guys know I’m tapering off the last bit of norcos I’ve been addicted to, you can get better I promise, there’s no shame in relapsing it happens to anyone who goes through these issues,” he wrote. “I’ve been feeling like death from withdrawals but I know once I’m sober I’ll feel amazing, I love you guys to death and I’m forever grateful for my fans who have supported me through everything, and I thank my haters for teaching me that negativity on social media doesn’t matter at fucking all haha.”

The SoundCloud Rapper Went To Rehab Last December

In December, the rapper announced that he was going to rehab. The month prior he had spoken with TMZ about how the deaths of other prominent music artists like Mac Miller and Lil Peep had frightened him and made him face his own addictions. 

“As far as my sobriety goes right now, there was a long period of time where I was clean,” he said at the time. “But I relapsed... Any other addict would understand that that s—t just happens. You just relapse—you don’t want to—and then you get clean again. It’s like a process. You need treatment and help and sometimes that doesn’t even help. It has to come from within. That’s what I’ve learned.”

Mac Miller's Death Changed His Perception On Drug Use

Lil Xan—whose rap name is short for Xanax—said that fentanyl and Mac Miller’s death had changed how he saw drug use. 

"I was selling Xanax before I was a rapper, you know, when it was real," he said last November. "And the minute it got to fentanyl, I was like, 'I'm not going to sell this.' My friends were taking it, they were puking. I was like, 'I can't… I'm out of the game.’”

Despite that, the rapper’s drug use and legal troubles seem to have continued. In June, Lil Xan reportedly pulled a gun on a man at a gas station in Los Angeles. The man had approached Lil Xan because the rapper previously called Tupac "boring," and a "little bitch.” A video of the incident was posted on Instagram. 

According to Complex, Lil Xan insisted that he pulled the gun in self-defense. 

"I was about to be attacked and resorted to having to use self-defense," he said. "Fuck all you old head ass bitches still talking bout that 2Pac shit. Live your own life and stop picking on a kid.”

However, the LAPD is investigating the incident and said that the rapper’s actions could constitute felony assault with a deadly weapon. 

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Kelly Burch writes about addiction and mental health issues, particularly as they affect families. Follow her on TwitterFacebook, and LinkedIn.