Lamar Odom Discusses Rehab And Sobriety On 'The Doctors'

By Britni de la Cretaz 01/20/17

“The only place to go from where I was at was being dead."

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Former NBA player Lamar Odom recently completed 30 days in rehab and sat down with The Doctors to discuss the experience and how he’s feeling now. During the hour-long episode of the show, Odom was open and honest about his struggles over the years, and what pushed him to finally get help.

Odom has had a rough couple of years, with a highly publicized drug overdose and the end of his marriage to reality TV star Khloe Kardashian as a result of his drug use. In December 2016, the former NBA champion announced that he was entering rehab. He checked himself into Casa Palmera Treatment Center in San Diego, California, where he completed the program.

On The Doctors, Odom said he was “feel[ing] good,” adding, “I’m great. Sober.” He said he was “defeated” and “had my white flag up” upon entering treatment, agreeing with the characterization of himself as “weak” at that time. He explained that his divorce was the catalyst for him seeking help, and he wanted to be in a safe place where he wasn’t at risk for going off on a bender to drown his emotional pain.

During his appearance, Odom spoke a lot about his children, touching on the death of his son, which he said he had never spoken about before. Odom’s son Jayden died in 2006 of SIDS when he was just six months old, something Odom says he never fully grieved.

He also shared his regret for all the ways he hasn’t been present for his kids as a result of his addiction, and said he hoped to be able to repair those relationships going forward. “Going away puts things in perspective,” he said. His children, Destiny and Lamar Jr., even visited him in treatment to participate in counseling sessions with him.

Describing his drug use, Odom said he was “basically just committing suicide” and “the only place to go from where I was at was being dead.” He went on to say, "You become so distant. Using drugs, it numbs you to everything. Even your feelings. Being at Casa, I learned how to live in the moment. Being – mentally and physically – is important to me, especially when dealing with my children."

Odom says he looks forward to working on many of the relationships that suffered as a result of his addiction. He apologized to Kardashian for “all that wasted time and wasted energy” that she put into helping him try to get well. He spoke of hoping to rekindle a relationship with Khloe, saying that he wanted to get her back. Their divorce was finalized in December of last year.

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Britni de la Cretaz is a freelance writer, baseball enthusiast, and recovered alcoholic living in Boston. Follow her on Twitter at @britnidlc.