Kid Cudi Details Why He Hid His Mental Health Struggles

By Paul Fuhr 12/26/18

Kid Cudi opened up about his mental health struggles on a recent episode of Jada Pinkett Smith's Facebook series, Red Table Talk.

Kid Cudi talks mental health

During a preview of Jada Pinkett Smith’s interview series Red Table Talk, Kid Cudi admitted to being “ashamed” to discuss his struggles with mental health. Born Scott Ramon Seguro Mescudi in Cleveland, Ohio, the “Day ‘n’ Nite” rapper argued that there is a persistent, dangerous stigma around mental health in the black community. 

Cudi added, that stigma keeps many people from getting the help they need. “I was really good at keeping my troubles hidden ... even from my friends,” Cudi told the Facebook show’s hosts Smith, Adrienne Banfield-Jones and Willow Smith. “I really was good with that. And it's scary because you hear people say, ‘I had no clue.’ I really went out of my way to keep what I was going through hidden because I was ashamed.” 

Jada Pinkett Smith echoed Cudi by revealing her own struggles with mental health. “I was severely depressed, severely, and that was something that I battled with for years. Waking up in the morning was like the worst part of the day. And it would take me hours [to adjust]. By the time the evening time came, I was at least like: ‘Okay, I’m good.’ But then you go to sleep again and you gotta restart.” 

Over the last couple of years, Cudi has been open about his mental health struggles. In October 2016, Cudi checked into a rehab facility for “depression and suicidal urges.” The day after he started treatment, he wrote an open letter that detailed his issues. 

“I am not at peace,” he said. “I haven't been since you've known me. If I didn't come here, I would've done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions every day of my life. There's a raging violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I can't make new friends because of it. I don't trust anyone because of it and I'm tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace.”

According to data collected by the National Institute of Mental Health, over 6.8 million black Americans had a “diagnosable mental illness” in 2018. Similarly, writer Hafeez Baoku wrote in a blog post for the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) that the black community’s stance on mental health needs to evolve. 

“If we are unable to remove the negative stigma surrounding mental health in the black community, we are willingly allowing another generation to grow up without access to counseling and mental health improvement resources that can help them live a happy, healthy life,” Baoku said. “You are not alone in your pain and you are not ‘weak’ or ‘less than’ because you are hurting. It’s time we reach out and ask for or offer help — because that’s what it takes to achieve the true healing we need.”

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Paul Fuhr lives in Columbus, Ohio with his family and two cats, Vesper and Dr. No. He's written for AfterParty MagazineThe Literary Review and The Live Oak Review, among others. He's also the host of "Drop the Needle," a podcast about music and addiction recovery. More at You can also find Paul on Linkedin and Twitter.