Ex-WWE Superstar Kaitlyn Opens Up About Alcohol Addiction On Instagram

By Britni de la Cretaz 10/27/17

"It took me so long to admit I had a problem... and then to admit how serious the problem was."

Kaitlyn posing for a photo in front of a mirror.
Photo via Instagram

Former WWE Superstar Kaitlyn posted a message to her Instagram this week in which she opened up about the alcohol and drug addiction that left her “wanting to die” at her lowest point. The photo marked the one-year anniversary of Kaitlyn—whose real name is Celeste Bonin—checking herself into a detox center.

The photo she posted alongside her message was one she had shared on the platform before, one year ago. “I took this picture in the airport bathroom after flying into LAX. I felt so awful and disgusted with myself but I remember posting it on Instagram with some stupid caption about being happy,” she writes.

Bonin, 31, shares that it took her a long time to admit she had a problem and needed help, and then even longer to admit that the problem might actually be a serious one. She writes, “I started abusing alcohol to deal with the chemical imbalances, panic attacks and sadness/depression I was experiencing.”

The post also talked about the false image she presented to the world on social media, making it seem like everything was fine when, in reality, she was hiding what was going on in her life. “I used to pretend to be and to live a certain way for social media. It's everyone's hi-light reel,” she writes. “You can have the world at your fingertips but end up destroying yourself if you're not careful. I'm fortunate enough to have pulled myself out of it all and was able rebuild my life.”

Bonin’s career began in body fitness modeling and in 2010, the 5’6” powerhouse signed with WWE. She then appeared on the third season of NXT, a reality show produced by WWE in which aspiring wrestlers compete to become the next breakout star. As Kaitlyn, she won the all-female season of her show.

In January 2013, Kaitlyn won the WWE Divas Championship by defeating Eve Torres, a title she retained for five months. She retired in 2014 in order to pursue the launch of her fitness clothing company, Celestial Bodiez.

In her Instagram post, Bonin said that anyone is susceptible to addiction, and that getting well is “about self awareness and humility.” 

She closes it out with words of advice for anyone who might be struggling. “Never be too proud to ask for help,” she writes. “Be able to wake up and look at yourself in the mirror.”

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Britni de la Cretaz is a freelance writer, baseball enthusiast, and recovered alcoholic living in Boston. Follow her on Twitter at @britnidlc.