Eve Opens Up About Past Struggles With Alcohol, Xanax

By Paul Fuhr 05/17/18

“I started drinking, and drinking, and drinking because I didn’t want to deal with my emotions.”

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Grammy award-winning rapper and actress Eve opened up about a “dark period” from her past, revealing that she had abused prescription pills and alcohol to cope with life.

According to People, the 39-year-old discussed her addictions on the CBS series The Talk, which she has co-hosted since last year.

The show’s hosts were talking about 17-year-old Willow Smith’s recent admission that she began cutting herself shortly after 2010’s “Whip My Hair”—a hit track that took Smith around the world.

“After the tour and the promotion and all of that, they wanted me to finish my album,” Smith said. “And I was like, I’m not gonna do that. And after all of that kinda settled down and it was like a kind of lull, I was just listening to a lot of dark music. It was just so crazy and I was plunged into this black hole, and I was cutting myself.”

The words immediately resonated with Eve who shared with her co-hosts that she understood Smith’s situation all too well.

“At a time in my life, at a point in my life, I’d gone through, and like [Smith] says, a dark hole,” Eve admitted. “I call it my ‘dark hole’ period, my dark period.”

Eve, whose song “Let Me Blow Ya Mind” (with Gwen Stefani) won the Grammy for Best Rap/Sung Collaboration in 2002, starred in a self-titled UPN sitcom as well as all three Barbershop films.

Success, she discovered, isn’t guaranteed to last. “I was out of a toxic relationship, I didn’t have a TV show, I didn’t have a record deal. I was just kinda like, what is happening with my life?” she explained. “So I started drinking, a lot.” (In 2007, Eve made headlines with a DUI charge.)

“I started drinking, and drinking, and drinking because I didn’t want to deal with my emotions,” Eve continued. “I didn’t have anybody to really talk to. I was even popping Xanax and drinking to numb my pain.”

“I just felt like I was coping, but I really wasn’t,” she noted. “You know, you think of harming yourself as cutting or something, but drinking and drugs is exactly the same thing in many ways.”

Her DUI charge, Eve said on The Talk, was the moment everything changed for her. (After leaving a nightclub in Hollywood, she crashed her gold Maserati into a concrete divider, with a blood alcohol level that was twice the legal limit.)

“It took my DUI, and I’ve talked about this on the show before, I got a DUI, and it took my DUI to wake me up because I had to wear one of those ankle things,” Eve observed. “And I didn’t want to because I knew it would force me to deal with my ‘S’, my stuff, and I did, and thankfully, I did and was able to get healthy.”

She added that “I prayed myself through it” and “I finally started figuring out the things that I needed to do to make myself healthy.”

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Paul Fuhr lives in Columbus, Ohio with his family and two cats, Vesper and Dr. No. He's written for AfterParty MagazineThe Literary Review and The Live Oak Review, among others. He's also the host of "Drop the Needle," a podcast about music and addiction recovery. More at paulfuhr.com. You can also find Paul on Linkedin and Twitter.