Bam Margera Shares His Rehab Struggles Through Social Media

By Maggie Ethridge 01/09/19

The long-struggling skateboard star aired his frustrations with rehab on the Internet, letting all his fans see how tough rehab can be.

Bam Margera in 2017
He's still hanging on. Nikki Margera / Wikimedia

Bam Margera, the former star of Jackass, is struggling with the confines of his rehabilitation. As reported in The Fix, Bam entered rehab for a third time on January 2, 2019.

Margera has struggled with drugs and alcohol since his youth, and the death of close friends from addiction has been a destructive force in his life. Ryan Dunn, a co-star of Jackass and one of Margera’s best friends, died in an alcohol-fueled, fiery car crash in Pennsylvania on June 20, 2011, alongside his friend Zachary Hartwell.

Bam Margera has taken to Instagram to filter his emotions while in rehab this third time. "Writing is one thing to do in rehab," is the caption of the below post, published in Livewire:

Dear Cocksuckers,

I have spent enough time grieving over Ryan Dunn through alcohol. I'm 39 years old, the party is over. I don't plan on drinking anymore. I have wasted too much time at the bar and all my friends who needed decades of help are now sober. I would like to join the sober parade. I hear the stories of other rehab patients telling me about there [sic] weeks or months of horrible detox. Well guess how many days of detox I had? ZERO!

I am sick of people always thinking I'm drunk, crazy or fucked up. So if you plan on calling me to tell me that, you can go fuck yourself instead. I'm not going to suck anyone's dick to stay on [skateboard company] Element and or prove that I am sober. I am sober. So keep printing BAM [skateboard] decks or don't. Plant a tree or go bite the big one, every day is Earth day!

Margera’s next Instagram post was as direct and emphatic:

To whom it may concern,

  1. I don't do well with not being allowed to Facetime my wife and kid
  2. I don't do well with not being able to answer important calls with important people
  3. I don't do well with not being able to go with everyone else to an outside AA meeting.
  4. I don't do well with not being allowed to use the gym.

I don't understand why I can't go on the Interweb like everyone else.

  1. My eyes hurt from reading, my wrist hurts from writing, 'cause there is nothing else to do.

Recovery often involves relapse and it definitely involves struggling through identity and pain, so perhaps Margera’s open discussion of his personal issues is one step closer toward health and sobriety. 

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Maggie May Ethridge is the author of Atmospheric Disturbances: Scenes From a Marriage (Shebooks, 2014) and the recently completed novel, Agitate My Heart. She is a freelance writer published in Rolling Stone, VOX, Washington Post, The Guardian and many others. Find her at her blog Flux Capacitor or on LinkedIn or Twitter.