Taking It Personally

By Fix40 07/05/18
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I once heard a woman at an AA meeting say that “other people are hell”. I’ve also heard the phrase “relation-shits” spoken at an AA meeting.

The latest concept I am employing is “not taking it personally”.

As a 40 year old with close to
10 years of sobriety in AA I am still sick and suffering in varying degrees. When it comes to managing my thought life and emotions in connection to romance and finance and with friends, family and fellow AA’s or other program people I don’t know shit sometimes.

Just venting.... I am having feelings. I don’t like the way this other person is being; the way they talk, smell, look, share at meetings.

Isolation and loneliness are part of the disease of alcoholism and addiction.

I don’t like when people chew gum. I don’t like cigarettes. I don’t like e cigarettes. I don’t like bad haircuts. I don’t like perfume, cologne, body spray. I don’t like cleaning chemical smells. I don’t like avoidance. I don’t like denial. I don’t like neediness. I don’t like bad jokes. I don’t like bad breath. I don’t like being ignored. I don’t like being misunderstood. I don’t like being questioned. I don’t like being criticized. I don’t like control freak perfectionists. I don’t like authority. I don’t like self pity and self loathing. I don’t like popular mainstream culture.

Progress.
Not perfection.

What IS my part in it?

Give it ALL to higher power.

Let GO
Let GOD

First things first. Admit that I am powerless over people, places and things. I always was. I always will be. I am not in charge.
Tolerance
Patience
Acceptance
Forgiveness
And more powerlessness
Powerlessness
Powerlessness
Powerlessness

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