This moment, This hour, This day

By Boozemusings Co... 02/16/18
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The sunrise was beautiful this morning. The air was crisp and fresh.

In the moment that I was walking, in the hour, on this day, I realized again that the choice I made just two and a half years ago, the choice to put down the wine glass, to think for myself, to fight for my life...

That choice changed everything.

Everything is different in my world now.

Every single day as I reach deeper inside myself for MY truth, Every hour as I continue to grow from a place of honesty and clarity, every minute that belongs to me!

I am grateful that I stopped washing it all away.

This is my life, these are my dreams, my heart is bursting with gratitude and it began by simply saying...

I will not drink today

In this moment, in this hour on this day I will Not Drink.

If I'm frightened or bored or lonely I will reach out.

I will read the words of others who have walked the path.

I will find someone to laugh with, someone to cry with, someone who is reaching back.

I will think, I will feel, I will be.

If I am tired I will sleep. If I am hungry I will eat . If I am lost I will listen to music, look at art, walk in nature.

Today I will not drink.

Join me .

And slowly in this moment, in this hour on this day we will begin to change the world together.

Beginning with ourselves.

One clear, creative, free, sober moment, hour, day at a time.

It's your choice.

I made mine.

When I was Drinking I was afraid.

I was afraid that I was destroying my health.

I was afraid that the whites of my eyes were turning yellow

I was afraid that I was an alcoholic

I was afraid that I couldn’t stop

I was afraid of Sobriety

Afraid I’d be dull

Afraid I’d lose my friends

Afraid I couldn’t do it

Afraid that if I stopped, everyone would know my secret.

But when I stopped

One day at a time I began to lose that fear.

I began to KNOW that I could hold on.

I began to trust myself.

I began to think for myself and write what I was thinking and read it and LEARN from myself.

I stopped Buying a lifestyle that was Killing my soul.

I stopped making excuses for behavior I despised.

I worked hard to hold onto my freedom and now I revel in that Freedom every day because Sober I OWN MYSELF!

I remember feeling that my bottle of wine was like a friend.

A calm harbor at the end of the day.

A lover who understood me and would soothe me.

I remember the feeling of loss when I left my friend behind.

The mourning for my lover.

I remember it being so hard to imagine NEVER DRINKING AGAIN.

I remember that very clearly even after two and a half years happily sober and I KNOW if I drink again I’ll be back to that place in a flash.

That is the addiction speaking.

The addiction will always be there.

But as long as I work my program a bit every day; write, read, listen, respond, feel, think, grow…

As long as I continue to feed my soul with pride and dignity I will never give in to the desire to drown my spirit again.

It took me six long years to discover that the answer was inside of me but the day I started blogging in a community was the last day I drank.

Alcohol is the only drug that people question you for NOT using. If you're going to stop you need a community of enablers. Sobriety enablers.

Don't be Trapped by the Status Quo.

We are a Private, Anonymous, Community Forum, open and free of charge to anyone hoping to take a break from drinking.

It is your choice.

Sobriety is Clarity, Creativity, Freedom! Community connection is the first step.

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