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Last Day One
I drink because I'm happy. I drink because I'm sad, lonely, angry or to reward myself for being sober for a week.
I drink because I want to. I drink when I don't want to. I drink for no reason and any reason. I drink today because I drank yesterday and want to feel better. But I won't.
I drink alone sneaking bottles into my house so my neighbours won't see and slip the empties out in the trash for fear the recycling centre staff think I'm a drunk.
I drink because I feel helpless and weak. I don't drink because I feel helpless and weak.
There's the irony in it. I drink to feel better but don't. I drink to escape but remain a prisoner. I drink in celebration and create a tragedy. I revel at night and wallow in the morning.
It's hard to believe or comprehend. At times, impossible to deny. Painful to live with but less so to be without.
I am bruised and tired. I don't need that kind of hurt anymore. Today I will try just a bit harder. Today I will take one step towards healing. When today comes to an end I will have a yesterday behind me and a new day ahead.
Be the Change you want in your life.
Sobriety is Clarity, Creativity, Freedom! Community connection is the first step.
ReThink the Drink
This post is by Rob Morton , the self published author of Stuff I Wrote https://goo.gl/LQGLKb and a member of BOOM the Independent, anonymous, private community inside Boozemusings . www.boozemusings.com
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