Battle the Booze Bully and Win!

By Boozemusings Co... 12/24/18
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This is my fourth sober holiday season and Christmas Cheer without the booze is finally becoming organic. It took some time though to evolve to a place where I don't miss drinking in December. Alcohol is everywhere at this time of year. It is wrapped in gold paper, topped with a red bow and handed to you with a smile by everyone from your boss to your parents. Shopping, crafting, caroling, cookie baking, wrapping presents, family parties, work parties, ... everything that you do between Thanksgiving and New Years is easily associated with alcohol and can be hard to do without reaching for a drink in early sobriety.

I was eight months happily sober when I celebrated my first alcohol-free Christmas as an adult. I'd been blogging about sobriety in a community called Hello Sunday Morning since the previous March and was as rock solid as could be. But then December hit and I was suddenly raw and fragile as my first month alcohol-free. I found that the unique holiday triggers were as daunting to fight as the everyday triggers I'd broken months before.

The first Christmas that I spent sober I just held on for dear life. I stepped back and let my husband, son, and daughter take over "operation Christmas crazy" while I quietly sipped hot chocolate and observed. For my entire adult life, the stress of spectacular magic making at Christmas time had been an excuse for me to drink heavily, so that first year I let the magic simply be a sober me. Present, quiet, loving and drama free. 

This year my ability to jump through hoops sprinkling sparkle dust everywhere at Christmas time has returned without the need to pickle myself. My husband and kids have happily taken over many of the things I used to do to make our world feel extra festive and I can walk through grocery stores and shopping malls and hardly notice the alters to everything alcohol. But there is still something left from that first sober Christmas that makes me really angry about the way our world pushes alcohol even in the most seemingly benign situations. 

I was snuggling on the couch watching T.V. with my 15-year-old daughter that first sober Christmas, four years ago, dressed in our Christmas sweatshirts and sipping hot chocolate cozily, when this moment in the BBC special Noble Minds knocked me out of my comfort zone and reminded me that the bullying to drink in our culture runs deep and most likely always will .

At 28 minutes and 30 seconds into the show the panel is asked if science will progess to cure cancer or to encourage behavioral change for cancer prevention. Alcohol was mentioned as a risk factor and the response of the Noble Laureate in chemistry was so typical of our cultural attitudes toward alcohol. I found it absolutely infuriating. In defense of alcohol he basically said Don't blame alcohol for cancer it's not a known carcinogen... it's a by-product of the metabolic process of digesting alcohol that causes cancer... but cigarettes and processed meats now those are a serious issue !

We knew that drinking alcohol caused cancer in 2015 and we knew that middle aged Americans were dying in record numbers of alcohol related suicides and disease. In 2018 there have been even more articles on both issues but alcohol is still glorified in our many English speaking cultures.

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For all of the many reasons that drinking is glorified if you want to stop or slow down you will need support. Because it's not just our culture that bullys us to drink it is also the liquid in the glass. Alcohol is a bully. The worst kind of bully. It looks pretty and we believe that it’s going to make us feel great but it robs us of our self-esteem. If you drink too much of it it works as a depressant and raises your anxiety levels making you want to reach for more. When people share their first post in our online community they often sound desperate, sad, hopeless, and alone because they are being bullied by the very thing that they have been told will bring them joy.

If you're trying to stop drinking, trying to slow down or to stay sober don't try to do it alone! That first sober Christmas I reached out to my community online right after watching that ridiculous statement from the Nobel Laureate and they reached back. It helped! If the traditional AA program doesn't work for you there are so many other communities to try. Most people need a community of peers to cut through the noise of our culture celebrating it's right to drink No MATTER WHAT! 

You will need a community that enables you to stay sober while the rest of the world is insisting that the problem is not with the drink but with the drinker.

Alcoholics Anonymous was most likely the first organization that came up with the system of a community of people who enabled each other in sobriety. Smart Recovery and Refuge Recovery and Women for Sobriety have taken up that mantle with a different mood in their meeting rooms. The online community that I found at Hello Sunday Morning was on the other side of my computer and that instant, any time of day, at home in my kitchen ease of online support worked beautifully for me. Hello Sunday Morning was also not really about sobriety but about changing cultural attitudes toward drinking by taking three months or a year off the booze and that made for some really creative, nonjudgmental dialogue.

I started a community called BOOM Rethink the Drink based on what we did in the Hello Sunday Morning Community which has sadly been shut down. BOOM is private, anonymous, free and away from the busy noise of social media. It's a comfortable place to talk about whatever you need to work through when you stop drunking and start feeling. You can read more about us here.

If you like Facebook check out the Booze Free Brigade, She Recovers, and Club Soda as well as the SHAIR recovery network and Recovery2. Annie Grace's Alcohol Experiment and Belle's 100 Day Challenge at Tired of Thinking About Drinking are both fantastic resources to help you focus on how to not drink when everyone around you seems to be toasting the buzz.

Reach out! Find your tribe, Join a few! Fight back and you will win on so many levels.

I spent three years on Hello Sunday Morning and never watched this Ted Talk with it's founder Chris Raine. Yesterday I finally did and this young man says it all! It's a Ted Talk well worth watching to wash away the hypocrisy of the Noble mind in the link above. Thank You, Chris Raine, for setting up the community that finally allowed me to step out of the dark and revel in Love and Poetry!

Merry, happy, peace and joy to you all!

May 2019 be the best of the best year in the evolution of you.


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