Talk Show Host Trisha Goddard Opens Up About Drug Addiction

By Desiree Bowie 09/29/14

The British TV star has replaced her weed and ecstasy addiction with exercise.

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British TV talk show host Trisha Goddard recently opened up about her drug addiction in honor of National Addiction and Recovery Month. 

In an exclusive with People magazine, Goddard, 56, admitted that she is just one puff of a joint away from spiraling down into the “big black hole” of her addiction. “I haven’t touched an illegal drug for 20 years. But there’s no way I could even have a puff of a joint. It would take me back into that big black hole that I used to exist in.”

A London-born star who rose to UK fame while hosting ITV’s BAFTA-winning Trisha, Goddard began taking drugs in her youth after being physically abused by her stepfather. 

“I was very sensitive and I endured terrible beatings from my stepfather. When he unleashed his fury, he would come at me and I would run and cower in a corner, ­covering my head while a rain of blows came down on my head," she said. "To escape my miserable situation I would smoke weed with my friends. It helped to anesthetize the pain that I was feeling.”

In the mid-1980s, Goddard moved to Australia where she began working as a journalist and became dependent on marijuana while battling clinical depression. Her first husband, Aussie politician Robert Nestdale, was a closet homosexual who later died of AIDS. Her second marriage to TV producer Mark Grieve also failed to bring her lasting happiness.

"I was off my head smoking weed, I didn’t know what on earth was going on around me," she recalled. "Days were spent in a drug-induced haze and I went to work in the newsroom having been stoned off my face the night before...smoking dope became my coping mechanism.”

Goddard smoked marijuana on a daily basis for nearly four years, stopping only after the suicide of her schizophrenic younger sister, Linda, in 1988. She later battled an addiction to ecstasy while her life entered another dark phase. Trisha was diagnosed with breast cancer and needed two operations, six months of chemotherapy, and five weeks of rad­iotherapy. But even at her lowest ebb during the illness, she remained drug-free.

These days, however, Goddard's drug of choice is exercise. "I am religious about exercise, it helps me manage my moods. I realize now that I don’t need to take drugs to cope with depression—which I will always live with but thankfully no long suffer from.”

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Desiree Bowie is a writer and movie lover from Los Angeles, California. Follow her on Twitter @dangerbowie