Libertines singer Pete Doherty released a new book this week entitled From Albion to Shangri-La, a collection of private diary entries from 2008-2013. The collection of journal excerpts goes into heavy details about both his former drug use and relationship with Amy Winehouse, who passed away three years ago due to alcohol intoxication.

In one entry written during a state of “chronic narcotic submersion,” Doherty described his physical state at the moment with great disdain. “The smudged appearance of the mouth and eyes, the stiff back of legs, the swollen and severed arms. The heaving chest. The stained hands and filthy aura,” he wrote. “The psychosis and the blood-letting, head that hangs so heavy around the dark doorway, smoking, ever the…drifting for the eternally…luminous piss and clotted spunk."

Doherty also alleged in the book that Winehouse’s former husband, Blake Fielder Civil, was convinced that the pair were “at it like rabid nymphomaniac dogs,” an accusation which Doherty denied in the entry. But in November 2012, he revealed that they were indeed lovers. “I loved her then and, well, I still do today,” he said more than a year after her death. "But towards the end, as only lovers can, she became quite mean and cruel to me. She didn’t suffer fools…and believe me, she had a mean right hook."

In June 2013, the singer tried to milk his former relationship by auctioning off discarded cigarette butts once smoked by the late Winehouse. Although he is reportedly sober at the moment, Doherty has famously struggled with addiction. In July 2012, he was kicked out of a posh rehab clinic in Thailand for disruptive behavior and bad influence on fellow patients.