Nicole Scherzinger Blames Bulimia for Relationship With Pussycat Dolls

In an interview with Event magazine, Nicole Scherzinger described her struggle with bulimia, and said her bandmates deserve an apology. “There were a lot of moments when I was with them that I was distant and stand-offish,” she said. “I never opened up to them to talk about my problems and I would shut myself away—and push them away—because I was battling this horrible secret illness, bulimia.”

Scherzinger revealed her eating disorder to the world in 2012, waiting eight years before finally getting help. “It’s sad to see how I wasted my life, I had such a great life on the outside, the Dolls were on top of the world, but I was miserable on the inside,” she told Cosmopolitan UK last year. 

“It was such a horrible, paralyzing disease and it was such a dark time for me,” she added. “I didn’t think anyone knew in my group or in my family because I hid it that well, I was so ashamed.”

Scherzinger, who described herself as a “shy, awkward and lanky” child, talked about bulimia with Event as well. “Between 18 and right up to my mid-30s, I suffered from bulimia,” she said. “It was all wrapped up with my low self-esteem and a crippling lack of confidence. It’s taken me a long time to deal with these issues and I feel so annoyed that I let that disease take over.”