Mystery Actress Divulges Adderall Addiction

By McCarton Ackerman 08/21/12

The anonymous actress tells xoJane that pill-addicted blogger Cat Marnell inspired her to quit.

Blogger Cat Marnell inspired the actress to
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An anonymous Hollywood actress has penned an open letter to to say that she is finally kicking her long-standing addiction to Adderall—and credits pill addict blogger Cat Marnell for inspiring her to quit. "Everyone around me is tweaked out of their minds, but I just flushed my pills down the toilet," declares the unknown starlet, who largely blames the medical community for the Adderall "epidemic." She began using the drug in 2008 when it was prescribed to her by a doctor, who was also charging her $2,000 per session. "It’s like getting me hooked on what is considered the socially acceptable, totally legal version of cocaine wasn’t enough for him," she writes. "He had to financially screw me, too. And thanks to medical jokes like him, everyone in this city is tweaked out of their brains on the stuff." The actress also admits that her use of the stimulant had wrecked her social life and was beginning to do the same to her career. "I was attracting the wrong men and creating dumb controversy," she writes. "Not on like a Lohan level, but flirting with it. I wouldn’t say I was a total trainwreck, but you could definitely hear the rumbling." Although she had been tempted to write for xoJane before about the dangers of Adderall use, she says it wasn't until reading the New York Times feature on Marnell that she decided to come clean, and quit using. "It made me sad," she writes. "It's time to stop. It's time to lead a more mindful existence. This column is dedicated to her. Let's leave it at that."

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McCarton Ackerman is a freelance writer and editor living in Portland, Oregon. He has been a contributor for The Fix since October 2011, writing on a wide range of topics ranging from medical marijuana in Colorado to the world's sexiest drug smugglers. Follow him on Linkedin and Twitter.