My Life As a Teenage Meth Head - Page 2

By Nic Sheff 01/27/12

I’d been warned about heroin but never about meth. For me, it was the most dangerous drug of all.

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An arrogant asshole that needed crystal meth above anything else.

I lied, stole, cheated, hustled, and broke into people’s houses all to get another bag of crystal.

And once I started shooting it—well, everything just got all that much worse (although, if I’d been smoking it, maybe I wouldn’t have any teeth, so at least that’s something).

Basically, it’s a nasty fucking dirty ass drug. 

Eventually, my body started to shut down on it and was doing something called compacting fecal matter (sorry, I know that’s gross), so it was like there was cement in my insides. When I finally got into detox, the doctor told me he was honestly surprised I was even alive. 

You know, I often talk to people about legalization of drugs, which I’m generally for—and I look at as an economic problem, not a moral one. But when I think about crystal meth, I mean, it’s so fucking disgusting, I find I have a hard time defending it. Really it just deserves to be wiped off the face of the earth. It destroyed my life. And it’s destroyed so many people’s lives. There is truly nothing redeeming about it. 

I genuinely regret having ever tried it in the first place.

I know in the 12 steps, they tell us that we shall “not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.” But I regret crystal meth. I regret lying, stealing, cheating and hustling to get it. I regret what it did to me. I regret having never been warned about it. Maybe that will change down the road, but I somehow doubt it.

Nic Sheff is a columnist for The Fix and the author of two memoirs about his struggles with addiction, the New York Times-bestselling Tweak, and We All Fall Down. He lives in Los Angeles with his wife, two hound dogs, and a cat and has previously written about selling himself for sex and his father David Sheff's book Beautiful Boy, among many other topics.
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Nic Sheff is the author of two memoirs about his struggles with addiction: the New York Times bestselling Tweak: Growing Up on Methamphetamines and We All Fall Down: Living with Addiction. Nic lives in Los Angeles, California where he writes for film and television. Find Nic on Twitter.