10 Reasons Why I’m Lucky To Be An Alcoholic

10 Reasons Why I’m Lucky To Be An Alcoholic

By Kelly Fitzgerald Junco 07/26/16

Yes, you read that headline correctly. 

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I, Kelly Fitzgerald, am lucky to be an alcoholic. If you’re shocked at hearing this statement, rest assured, you aren’t the only one. I surprise myself in thinking this way daily. Who would ever call themselves lucky to be an alcoholic? It seemed like a crazy notion to me, until well into my sobriety. During my first sober months, I saw and heard people refer to being grateful for their addiction and alcoholism. I didn’t understand and frankly, I was appalled. I was still in denial. I didn’t want to admit I was an alcoholic and I could never imagine feeling grateful about it. At three years sober, my views have completely changed. I now count myself as one of those crazy people who believes they are truly lucky to be an alcoholic.

1. I don’t have to drink anymore

Wait, isn’t that why people get upset that they are alcoholics? Not me. I’m relieved. Identifying as an alcoholic and being in recovery has saved me a lot of pain, the pain of attempting to drink normally. It was a merry-go-round that wasn’t ever going to stop. I’m lucky I was able to get off.

2. I get to work on myself every day

When I was drinking, I never took responsibility for my actions. I thought the world was out to get me and I couldn’t fathom that I might have something to do with it. In recovery, I get to learn about myself and work on growing every day. This is the beauty of admitting to your addiction and evolving from it.

3. I am able to show up for my family and friends

When I was drinking I was incapable of being a good daughter, sister, aunt, friend, or partner. I didn’t have it in me. I didn’t know how to show up for the important people in my life, yet I criticized anyone who would do the same to me. I consider myself lucky to have the opportunity to show up for all of my friends and family now. I’ve learned this through the 12 steps and working on my recovery. 

4. I get to be connected

I never realized how disconnected I was until I got sober, but at the heart of addiction is disconnection. We yearn for someone or something to understand us and sympathize with us. I had been searching for connection for years at the bottom of a bottle, but was surprised when I never found it. I was too numb to have a real connection with anyone. But luckily today, as someone in recovery, I can finally connect.

5. I’m alive

While drinking, I had a shield of protection called alcohol. I thought I was invincible, and at times when I knew I wasn’t, I didn’t care if I lived or died. I wasn’t even aware that I had lost the passion to live until after I entered sobriety. Had I not admitted that I had issues with alcohol and could no longer drink, I might not be alive today. And if I was, my quality of life would not be like it is now.

6. I get to be aware

It’s funny because I think by drinking, many of us are trying to avoid being aware of anything. We don’t want to be aware because then we have to face our emotions and our fears. But what we don’t know is, these emotions will never go away and the pain only gets worse. I feel lucky I’ve been able to deal with the pain and emotions now that I’m sober.

7. I get to learn how to cope

I’ve heard this phrase many times in recovery: “I feel like I was a child who wasn’t given an instruction manual on life.” I felt the same way when I was growing up. It was like everyone around me knew how to do life and make friends and cope, except me. There are even people who feel like this who aren’t alcoholics. I feel like I am a lucky one, that I get to incorporate the 12 steps into my everyday life and finally learn the coping mechanisms that I’ve always needed and some people will never get.

8. It has allowed me to get back to me

I felt like I knew who I was during my drinking years. I played my favorite sport, I ran a half marathon, I traveled—but I was only going through the motions of life. I did a lot of things I really had no interest in and I didn’t figure this out until I got sober. Since I’ve admitted to my alcohol problems and worked to move past them, I have also learned how to say no to activities and events I don’t like. I feel like I’m finally getting to know the real me. I don’t think I would have this opportunity if alcohol hadn’t left my life.

9. I am content

I was searching for something to fill me up ever since I was a child. Whether it was friends, sports, socializing, shopping, men—you name it, I tried it. I couldn’t figure out why I was never satisfied no matter what I had. The endless quest for more was exhausting. I consider myself lucky to have found sobriety and with that, I’ve been able to become content. I find joy in everyday life and simple things like just waking up sober in the morning.

10. I have transformed

The main reason I consider myself to be lucky to have accepted and overcome my addiction is that it has completely transformed my life. I’m a different person from who I was three years ago. I’ve gone from hopeless to hopeful. I’ve finally become the person I was always meant to be, and I’ve done it by admitting that alcohol no longer belongs in my life. If I didn’t take that first step, I wouldn’t have the career, relationships, and happiness I am so grateful to have. 

It’s because of my addiction that I am where I am today. I never knew just saying the simple words “I am an alcoholic” could be the catalyst to all of my joy. 

Kelly Fitzgerald is a sober writer based in Southwest Florida whose work has been published on the Huffington Post among other sites. She writes about her life as a former party girl living in recovery on The Adventures of The Sober Señorita.

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Kelly Fitzgerald Junco is a sober writer based in Southwest Florida who is best known for her personal blog The Adventures of a Sober Señorita. Her work has been published across the web including sites like Huffington PostMediumThe FixRavishlySheKnowsElite Daily, and AfterPartyMagazine. You can find Kelly on Linkedin and Twitter.

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